Warning: This get's a bit "deep"

I'm not going to be making any witty comments about the inconsistency of this blog, I'm done with apologising, I feel it has to be a little more organic from now on.

I'm consumed by a warming melancholy that compels me to write.

I found contentment and clarity on the beach. My frame of mind has gone from one extreme to the other, healed purely by the wind, sun, sea and sand. That is saying a lot coming from someone like me, someone who prefers to deal with things through reason and logic.

I have a feeling I will achieve something fantastic this week. I intend to read and write more, and do all that from the beach. I have a feeling that a lot my friendships are exhausted, although still strong, perhaps a phase, circumstance, or just my own doing, either way it is some how meant to be. I have found great clarity of thought in my own company, and it's that clarity that has enabled me to read and write again.

I've rediscovered my love for music, not that I ever really lost it. I'm beginning to think I went through a period of being cut off from anything emotive. Maybe it was a way of coping, but I'm not sure what I was trying to cope with. I've lately found myself dealing with everyone else's feelings. I get immense satisfaction out of helping others I care about, but maybe it's time to be a little selfish.

My play-list for the week is:

Lazy Eye - Silversun Pickups

The White Flash - Modeselektor (Feat. Thom Yorke)

Radio's Hot Sun - Handsome Furs

Always Like This - Bombay Bicycle Club

Soothe - Smashing Pumpkins

薔薇と彼女の王子 - Heartsrevolution

Something good can work - Two Door Cinema Club

I'm putting aside reason and logic, I'm going to feel a lot of emotion about everything this week, it will be beautiful and may leave me in tears, but all will be worth it.

My thoughts this week are with Carrie in Mongolia.